The generator pulled my chain this morning - again. It's a great little beast, however, it does have some carburetor issues that need to be addressed. Sometimes our generator purrs like a kitten and sometimes, no matter what I do, I can't keep the thing running. Today, was one of those days.
My great desire is to be a woman with a quiet and gentle spirit. I long to meet adversity face to face, smile gracefully, and do the next thing. The reality of me is something different. I get frustrated and irritated and start murmuring. I think "no one else has to mess with their stupid generator" or "if only we would have taken care of this when we should have, this wouldn't have happened". I become discontent and my focus becomes "poor me", making me ineffective in taking care of the business at hand.
As I sat stewing about my current problem, I started thinking about the life that we have been preparing for. We have been stocking up on food, communications equipment, weapons and ammunition. We have been cultivating skills to serve us in a grid down situation. We have been canning, shooting and deepening our faith. But, have we been molding our attitudes to deal with adversity? Do we meet adversity with quiet faith and a can-do attitude, or do we moan and complain and say "it's not fair"! Do we stomp our feet and throw a fit or do we stare adversity down and come out victorious?
Today, I decided to quit stomping my feet like a spoiled child. A broken generator and living 10 years off the grid have taught me that adversity is a way of life. Much more important than the adversity that comes my way is how I handle that adversity - that is the real test.
It occurred to me that one of our greatest assets for a preparedness lifestyle is our attitude. We can all have a great attitude when everything is going well and life runs smoothly - but the rubber meets the road when the difficult things happen. We can choose to make our life easier or more difficult when adversity comes our way. We can choose to throw a temper tantrum or we can choose to make the best out of whatever life throws at us.
Later this morning, after I had talked to God about my attitude, I tackled the generator again. I filled it with fuel, leveled it out and pushed the power button. You know what? It purred like a kitten!