It is easy to become discouraged - to lose faith. I am certain, with every fiber of my being, that God is directing our family to move. Although I have missed "home" for a number of years, Sir Knight and I have never felt directed to move there - until a little over a year ago. God had to change both Sir Knight's and my heart and open our eyes to new possibilities for us to even consider this move, but we both are convinced this is the direction God is leading. I am so certain that we are moving, that I have packed up a majority of our belongings. But then, I open my eyes and see our failing economy, lackluster real estate market and international unrest and I start to question. Did I hear you right, Lord? Is it really you, or just my own desires cloaked as "your will"? I begin to lose faith.
As I was sweeping my shouse today, thinking about that fact that nobody would ever buy our property and we were "stuck" here forever and generally feeling sorry for myself, I began reflecting on the uprising currently overtaking Egypt. Our world is experiencing the consequences of one woman's lack of faith. By encouraging Abraham to produce children with Hagar, Sarah gave birth to the Muslim nation. God had told Sarah many years before, that she would be the mother of a great nation. Years went by, hopes faded and Sarah decided to take matters into her own hands. She decided to "help" God out. In doing so, she was directly responsible for the greatest enemy of the Hebrew people to ever walk the face of the earth. Not only did Sarah lose faith, she caused her husband to questions his faith as well.
As usual, God spoke to me through His word. He showed me my propensity toward a lack of faith. He showed me that no matter how long it takes, He is faithful in His promises. It doesn't matter if everything looks hopeless - He has it under control. He also showed me that one woman's faith (or lack thereof) can affect the entire world.
I will be steadfast. I will not lose hope. I will be marked by faith.