Sunday, December 16, 2012
For the last 6 months or so, I have been revisiting my priorities. In the midst of a busy, happy life, I have felt the consistent nudging of my heart moving me in a different direction. It has been little things - a four year old nestled at my elbow waiting for me to finish sewing to read to him or play a rousing game of Candyland, a 17 year old man wanting to know what the Bible says about tattoos and body piercings, a 13 year old girl who confesses that she is afraid she won't be able to pull the trigger on her first deer but is ready to preserver after a prayer for protection and boldness. And it is not just my children that need a mother - my husband needs a wife. Sir Knight's days are long and his burdens many. He relies on a smiling face and a warm welcome when he returns from slaying the dragons. A cup of tea and a listening ear are essential to his well being. When dragons are threatening to overwhelm my Knight, an encouraging word and the knowledge that I have his back and that I believe in him are what carries him forward in battle.
By nature, I am a go getter. I tackle whatever task is before me with vigor. Truth be told, I may even be an over-achiever. Because of that tendency, I have to stop from time to time and reevaluate my life. I have to get back to basics and remember what is really important. I fill my life with "good" things but every once in a while I have to remind myself to get back to what is "best".
In the past 4 years I have started this blog, written a book, almost completed another book, written articles too numerous to mention and started a business. This, on top of being a wife, a mother, homeschooling, making nearly everything from scratch and living off the grid. I am failing. Although I enjoy all that I do, and they are all "good" things, they are not all the "best" things. My first priorities HAVE to be my husband and my children. It is time for me to "Mother Up".
As my children have gotten older, I have noticed that they need me more than ever. When they were little, they needed guidance and discipline. They needed stories and snuggling and playing outside. As they have grown, their needs have changed. Once, they took every bible story at face value, now they want to know how God's word correlates to the reality of living life. They want to know how the Old Testament corresponds with the New Testament. They want to know HOW to control their temper when someone says something unkind or untrue. They want to know why people live the way they do, why governments run the way they do and why people think the way they do. They want to know how to choose a mate, what God says about how they should dress and why they still have to struggle with doing the right thing even when they know what the right thing is. My children want to know about life. And I am their teacher.
I have come to the conclusion that my job as wife and mother trumps all other jobs. If I do not encourage and love my husband, someone else will. If I do not teach my children, correct my children, guide my children, someone else will. And their lives, both here and in eternity, will bear the fruit of my choices today.
Families are failing. Fathers have been dethroned. Children have been cast to the wolves. Mothers are gone. Our nation is sobbing, in sackcloth and ashes. Our clothes have been rent and ashes cover our heads.
The answers we seek are not in more laws and tighter security. The answers we seek are in God's plan for the family. We need fathers. We need mothers. Our children are OUR responsibility. WE need to raise them, to guide them, to teach them. Women - your husbands NEED you - your children NEED you. They don't need your money - they need YOU! They need your wisdom, they need your example, they need your ear. They need you to listen, to counsel, to know them. They need you to believe in them, to champion them, to guide them and to disciple them. Your boss doesn't NEED you - you are replaceable to him - NOT to your children.
I am a wife. I am a mother. That is purpose of my heart. My God needs me to change the world - through my husband and my children. I will head the call.
At this moment, I have shut down my business website. Technically, it is still online, however there is no way to place an order. Maid Elizabeth and I are in the process of finishing up our last few orders. We will make decisions regarding the business in the new year. Sir Knight and I are discussing the future of this blog. We're not sure - I'll keep you posted. We are circling the wagons. We are preparing to defend this precious gift of our family with our lives.
To all of you women - it is time. Be a wife. Be a mother. This IS your calling. The time has come to gird your strength and "Mother Up". Your family is everything!
*Sidenote - Master Hand Grenade does NOT want a tattoo or a body piercing! He just wanted to know what God's word said about them. He was having a hard time understanding why they are so prevalent in society today!